Post by Martin on Sept 11, 2010 23:35:20 GMT -5
Topic: no words can describe the pride I feel, my son is incredible and anyone who says other wise will be corpse
Date: June 4th,2019
Yo Diary,
It has been ten years since my last entry, today is a special day it's my son's birthday, he is growing up so fast, and he is no longer the little terror he once was. He is now a intelligent little man, granted he looks like a teenager, none the less he will always be my little man. I have been very busy lately, I have been doing the paperwork and working on a settlement for my company, I have decided to sell my mining business, I have had those mines now for a long time now, but it's time to move on and break the last link I had to my human life.
I of course will have money to last until the end of time probably, I have a few billion in banks across the world, So I never have to worry about Tobias's college fund, I have planned for my son to go to Harvard or Dartmouth. He will get the best education I can buy, but he will also earn his place there, which is why I have private tutors for my son now to nurture his mind. Today for Tobias' Birthday, I bought him an X-box 360 and a stack of games for it, along with a new TV and I bought him a notebook compter. I don't want Tobias to have unsupervised access to the internet so it doesn't have the internet, I told him to use it as a diary, to write down his feelings and thoughts he can't share with me just so he has some place to express himself.
My son seemed pretty pleased, we were playing with his gifts for ages. I had to drag him away from his room to have the lunch I prepared for him, I watched Tobias wolf down his food and I told him to slow down the last thing I want for him is to choke. While Tobias ate his food I went to his room, it looked like a bomb went off in there, clothing all over the place and dvds and books all over the floor. I sighed and began to clean his room. My son needed to learn to live organized. The only book that wasn't on the floor was Tobias's copy of Alice in Wonderland, it was something SHE! had given him, I never told Tobias this, he assumes its just a childhood book.
Tobias finished his lunch and I told him to help me clean up, while cleaning I asked my son why he liked that book so much, I was surprised at the indepth answer he gave me "How can I not like it, when I read it it's like I leave this world and enter that world, it's an adventure and it's all about the loss of innocence, the need for escape and the search for ones identity, to discover not just who you are, but who you become." it was an indepth answer for a ten year old, the tutors must be doing their job, I remember thinking to myself at that time. I told my son it was time that he became a man and learn to hunt for his meal.
I took my son hunting and did something I never did in front of him before, I killed in front of him, I killed mercilessly and the women suffered, oh yes she did. I drained the life out of her. I could feel her heart and hear it stopped. I finished her off and drained all her blood long after her heart stopped beating. After she was dead I ripped off her flesh and felt nothing for her, she was human, she was under me, nothing but dinner, see being a vampire we can turn off morality and I liked keeping it off, it made life simpler, I felt nothing for the human, she was nothing at all after ripping off the females flesh, I pulled out a glad wrap plastic bag, I would burn the flesh later, but for nowIi had to clean my mess. I placed the human in the dumpster and looked at my son.
I saw the fear in his eyes, and I knew my son was at an impass in his life right now, it was up to him what path he would choose now, he could choose to live off human blood or if his concious is strong enough he could go to animal blood, either way I would be proud of him, I would love him for what he was and not judge him and most of all I would support him because he is my son and that is my purpose in life. To love him, to guide him and accept him for what he is no matter what lifestyle he lives. I could never judge my son because he means so very much to me, he is everything to me and I will always be proud of him.
I told my son it was his turn and I waited for his answer. Tobias just looked at me and with courage he told me "I am sorry dad, but I can't....I don’t want to hurt anyone." I asked him if he was sure about this and he nodded his head, my son he had such a pure heart, I wonder who he got it from...he did not get it from his mother nor did he get it from me. I smiled and guided him to the car, it was time to take my son home. I thought about my son's choice and I had to know what his reason was for his choice. "I am sorry father, but seeing the pain and the terror on the human's face it was horrible." my son became quiet for a moment and he spoke "I don’t want to drink blood anymore, I think from now on if I do I would only see that person's face." I nodded my head and at that moment I made a choice "well if your going to commit yourself to not drinking human's blood then there is another way son." I told him, I kept my eyes on the road and saw he had his seat belt undone. and I told my son to put his seatbelt on.
I told my son about the Cullens and Denali's, that they fed only off animal blood, I told him he could the same if he wanted and become a vegetarian. He thought it was worth a shot and I wanted to do anything I could to surport him so I told him I would join him and commit myself to drinking animal blood too, even though it taste like shit compared to human blood. I would make that sacrifice for him, I would not hesitate because I accept his lifestyle, he is my son what he likes doesn't matter as long as he was happy....I have to support him....no, I don't have to, I want to support him....It's funny, I am trying hard to explain how much I would support my son, but there is no need its just an instinct. I believe anyone who doesn't want to support their child, help their child or show their child love shouldn't be a parent. They should be locked away some place and kept as far from their child as possible so it dosn't fuck them up and make them think they're damaged goods.
My son thanked me and I told him it was no problem, I felt that way because it was the truth where my son went I would follow and protect him. We arrived home and I sat him down and told him that I sold my company and I also told him we were moving. So I explained to my son that it was needed, that we needed a fresh start. I could see he wanted to stay, he had sentimental feelings for this place, even though he never met his mother, he knew she was once here that she once walked down these hallways and sat in this very lounge room and that being here in this place somehow made him feel closer to her.
I should have moved us out of this place ages ago, as soon as she left me, I should have just packed up and took my son away from this cursed place, but being here...I felt close to her too......even after all she said and did, I loved her and a big part of me still does love her. If she came to me today at this very moment and begged for forgiveness and to take her back, I would take her back without hesitation, but I know Sarah well, she won't be back. I told my son to let go, that being here would not bring his mother back, it was hard being cruel like that, but I had no choice it was for his best interest. I hugged my son trying to make him feel warm and safe and told him he would have lots of new friends and I would introduce him to someone like him a little hybrid girl named renesmee.
I watched my son and he accepted it, it was hard I could see that this was the only home he ever knew, he left for his room and I told him not to stay up too late, I wondered what went on in his mind. so much had happened to him, how did it really impact him?, I sat on the couch on the lounge room and closed my eyes, I could never sleep again, one of the perks and curses of being a vampire, so I listened to everything around me. I could hear Tobias feverishly typing on his notepad, I guess he liked the present and I was glad I at least managed to get this right.
I continued to listen to him type and wished I knew what he was typing, was it a story....a diary entry, I could check if I wanted to when he slept, but I could not do that to my son. I waited and heard the computer turn of. I went to his room and knocked on it, I asked him if he was still awake knowing full well that he was, he told me he was and I watched him with that damn Alice in Wonderland book in his hand, I told him I would be in the lounge room if needed me. So I went to the loungeroom and looked at the hallway, the light finally went out and I waited for an hour, when I went to check on him I sat at his desk chair and watched him sleep, he was growing so fast...too fast for my comfort, my biggest fear is losing him...I can't lose him, he is all I have. I watched him uptil an hour ago, I finally left to tell you about our time together, I have to go its six am and I need to go get his meal ready, which means I need to go hunting.
Brian
Date: June 4th,2019
Yo Diary,
It has been ten years since my last entry, today is a special day it's my son's birthday, he is growing up so fast, and he is no longer the little terror he once was. He is now a intelligent little man, granted he looks like a teenager, none the less he will always be my little man. I have been very busy lately, I have been doing the paperwork and working on a settlement for my company, I have decided to sell my mining business, I have had those mines now for a long time now, but it's time to move on and break the last link I had to my human life.
I of course will have money to last until the end of time probably, I have a few billion in banks across the world, So I never have to worry about Tobias's college fund, I have planned for my son to go to Harvard or Dartmouth. He will get the best education I can buy, but he will also earn his place there, which is why I have private tutors for my son now to nurture his mind. Today for Tobias' Birthday, I bought him an X-box 360 and a stack of games for it, along with a new TV and I bought him a notebook compter. I don't want Tobias to have unsupervised access to the internet so it doesn't have the internet, I told him to use it as a diary, to write down his feelings and thoughts he can't share with me just so he has some place to express himself.
My son seemed pretty pleased, we were playing with his gifts for ages. I had to drag him away from his room to have the lunch I prepared for him, I watched Tobias wolf down his food and I told him to slow down the last thing I want for him is to choke. While Tobias ate his food I went to his room, it looked like a bomb went off in there, clothing all over the place and dvds and books all over the floor. I sighed and began to clean his room. My son needed to learn to live organized. The only book that wasn't on the floor was Tobias's copy of Alice in Wonderland, it was something SHE! had given him, I never told Tobias this, he assumes its just a childhood book.
Tobias finished his lunch and I told him to help me clean up, while cleaning I asked my son why he liked that book so much, I was surprised at the indepth answer he gave me "How can I not like it, when I read it it's like I leave this world and enter that world, it's an adventure and it's all about the loss of innocence, the need for escape and the search for ones identity, to discover not just who you are, but who you become." it was an indepth answer for a ten year old, the tutors must be doing their job, I remember thinking to myself at that time. I told my son it was time that he became a man and learn to hunt for his meal.
I took my son hunting and did something I never did in front of him before, I killed in front of him, I killed mercilessly and the women suffered, oh yes she did. I drained the life out of her. I could feel her heart and hear it stopped. I finished her off and drained all her blood long after her heart stopped beating. After she was dead I ripped off her flesh and felt nothing for her, she was human, she was under me, nothing but dinner, see being a vampire we can turn off morality and I liked keeping it off, it made life simpler, I felt nothing for the human, she was nothing at all after ripping off the females flesh, I pulled out a glad wrap plastic bag, I would burn the flesh later, but for nowIi had to clean my mess. I placed the human in the dumpster and looked at my son.
I saw the fear in his eyes, and I knew my son was at an impass in his life right now, it was up to him what path he would choose now, he could choose to live off human blood or if his concious is strong enough he could go to animal blood, either way I would be proud of him, I would love him for what he was and not judge him and most of all I would support him because he is my son and that is my purpose in life. To love him, to guide him and accept him for what he is no matter what lifestyle he lives. I could never judge my son because he means so very much to me, he is everything to me and I will always be proud of him.
I told my son it was his turn and I waited for his answer. Tobias just looked at me and with courage he told me "I am sorry dad, but I can't....I don’t want to hurt anyone." I asked him if he was sure about this and he nodded his head, my son he had such a pure heart, I wonder who he got it from...he did not get it from his mother nor did he get it from me. I smiled and guided him to the car, it was time to take my son home. I thought about my son's choice and I had to know what his reason was for his choice. "I am sorry father, but seeing the pain and the terror on the human's face it was horrible." my son became quiet for a moment and he spoke "I don’t want to drink blood anymore, I think from now on if I do I would only see that person's face." I nodded my head and at that moment I made a choice "well if your going to commit yourself to not drinking human's blood then there is another way son." I told him, I kept my eyes on the road and saw he had his seat belt undone. and I told my son to put his seatbelt on.
I told my son about the Cullens and Denali's, that they fed only off animal blood, I told him he could the same if he wanted and become a vegetarian. He thought it was worth a shot and I wanted to do anything I could to surport him so I told him I would join him and commit myself to drinking animal blood too, even though it taste like shit compared to human blood. I would make that sacrifice for him, I would not hesitate because I accept his lifestyle, he is my son what he likes doesn't matter as long as he was happy....I have to support him....no, I don't have to, I want to support him....It's funny, I am trying hard to explain how much I would support my son, but there is no need its just an instinct. I believe anyone who doesn't want to support their child, help their child or show their child love shouldn't be a parent. They should be locked away some place and kept as far from their child as possible so it dosn't fuck them up and make them think they're damaged goods.
My son thanked me and I told him it was no problem, I felt that way because it was the truth where my son went I would follow and protect him. We arrived home and I sat him down and told him that I sold my company and I also told him we were moving. So I explained to my son that it was needed, that we needed a fresh start. I could see he wanted to stay, he had sentimental feelings for this place, even though he never met his mother, he knew she was once here that she once walked down these hallways and sat in this very lounge room and that being here in this place somehow made him feel closer to her.
I should have moved us out of this place ages ago, as soon as she left me, I should have just packed up and took my son away from this cursed place, but being here...I felt close to her too......even after all she said and did, I loved her and a big part of me still does love her. If she came to me today at this very moment and begged for forgiveness and to take her back, I would take her back without hesitation, but I know Sarah well, she won't be back. I told my son to let go, that being here would not bring his mother back, it was hard being cruel like that, but I had no choice it was for his best interest. I hugged my son trying to make him feel warm and safe and told him he would have lots of new friends and I would introduce him to someone like him a little hybrid girl named renesmee.
I watched my son and he accepted it, it was hard I could see that this was the only home he ever knew, he left for his room and I told him not to stay up too late, I wondered what went on in his mind. so much had happened to him, how did it really impact him?, I sat on the couch on the lounge room and closed my eyes, I could never sleep again, one of the perks and curses of being a vampire, so I listened to everything around me. I could hear Tobias feverishly typing on his notepad, I guess he liked the present and I was glad I at least managed to get this right.
I continued to listen to him type and wished I knew what he was typing, was it a story....a diary entry, I could check if I wanted to when he slept, but I could not do that to my son. I waited and heard the computer turn of. I went to his room and knocked on it, I asked him if he was still awake knowing full well that he was, he told me he was and I watched him with that damn Alice in Wonderland book in his hand, I told him I would be in the lounge room if needed me. So I went to the loungeroom and looked at the hallway, the light finally went out and I waited for an hour, when I went to check on him I sat at his desk chair and watched him sleep, he was growing so fast...too fast for my comfort, my biggest fear is losing him...I can't lose him, he is all I have. I watched him uptil an hour ago, I finally left to tell you about our time together, I have to go its six am and I need to go get his meal ready, which means I need to go hunting.
Brian